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Tuesday, December 8
if there's something that i'd get addicted to
you're going down for the world to see,
and i'm laughing at you :D
10:44 PM
it's got to be peppermint candy.
if there's something that i'd get addicted to
I KNOW A LOT OF PEOPLE SAYS IT SUCKS, BUT I DON'T THINK SO.
I have to admit that Twilight was nicer, but i think for an in-between movie it was alright. At least it makes me really excited about Eclipse :D
And i totally love Jacob Black :D
I preferred Edward because i think he's better looking but i prefer Jacob's character. Haha! Yeah i literally like Jacob, not Taylor Lautner. He looked hot at first, but after awhile he just seems too muscular and it's abit scary.
WHATEVER, BCOMM IS OVER
I LOVE JACOB BLACK!!! :D
you're going down for the world to see,
and i'm laughing at you :D
11:19 AM
it's got to be peppermint candy.
Sunday, December 6
if there's something that i'd get addicted to
Yeah, though nothing seems to be exactly fun now, my a-tad-too-busy schedule doesn't seem to correspond with my unhappening life.
And i'm starting to think i don't really like growing up as much as i thought i did.
I use to revel in the idea of it, of being able to do what i want, having my own apartment- living in my own world.
But now, not so much.
It seems that as i grow up, i've become more stupid. I used to be smarter, got good grades, was from a good school etc. Now, i'm desperate to get into a local u, i'm having trouble catching up with my peers' pace and all.
And i used to be soooo decisive. Something i liked about myself. Now, i can take forever to make 1 stupid decision. Alright, when it's cash-concerned i tend to take a little more time, especially when i'm poor. I was thinking that the reason for my indecisiveness these recent years is because i've been spending increasing amounts of time alone, there's no one to rush me(there has never been though. i was always fast, otherwise, impulsive) and i've learnt to take my time in making decisions. Of course being indecisive doesn't take away the pleasure from the retail therapy, but still, i prefer to not consult anyone when i'm buying things.
There's also the previously mentioned point about my loss of confidence. I hate it. I have absolutely no idea how or when it happened, but i guess i sorta discovered it during stagewerkz, when i shocked everyone and myself by not being able to sing at all during the rehearsal/training. I knew i had stagefright, i just didn't know it's that bad. Stagefright is of course associated to nervousness, but it shouldn't apply when i present or talk to people.
Now i get scared easily, i tend to say the wrong things, i stutter etc, so how can i think clearly with all these things bothering me when i'm trying to converse with people? It could be due to the lack of vocabulary, but that shouldn't be it. So what is it? Anxiety i supposed. But why? I don't know.
Also, i seem to have become more emotional. I've always been one who thinks a lot, but now i just get really bothered by it. Did i always shrug off my thoughts or perhaps nothing really worried me that much in the past? I never cried. Now, i cry super easily. I hate it. So weak.
I'm starting to not believe in myself. Or maybe there are just so many things to do? I think i'm becoming like Joey. But i don't want to.
I don't know what to say a lot of times and i just don't really want to talk too much these days. Yeah, why? Sure enough i was pretty quiet for a period of time in the past, but that was because i was in an emo phase. Alright i wasn't born talkative, but....idk. Nothing should be bothering me now, but i just don't feel good.
If only i can go overseas now. Or maybe the 2 weeks break would be good time to straighten myself out? Ok, i'll probably be too busy with projects, but whatever, i need to do something to break out of my current state. Do something crazy or what. Maybe that explains my recent alchohol cravings which my sister refuse to satisfy.
Yeah, we're both one-way bitches. Benefits only go one way each time. I wanted to go drinking on Friday but she didn't want to go with me- no benefits for her. On Saturday she needed company so she tried to coax me into going out with her with the excuse that we haven't gone out together for some time. It's like she's only willing to go out with me cos she needed to go out. Then again, i'm like that too, but less horrible. At least i don't try to buy my way through. If she doesn't want, i'll let it go instead of offering her this and that. It's called Principle. No means no. Money should be an intrument for enticement though it works wonders.
So now the only events i'm really looking forward to are Heels-Hunting(applies to me, or maybe Kaina, only. probably Clothes-Search for Derek and Charles-&-Keith-Membership-Application-Day for Herlina) tomorrow and Bert's Post 18th Birthday Celebration.
Fine, i'm done complaining. I probably need to do bungee, or reverse, now to feel better.
Market Summary's waiting for me.
you're going down for the world to see,
and i'm laughing at you :D
4:44 PM
it's got to be peppermint candy.
Friday, December 4
if there's something that i'd get addicted to
By anything I mean I haven't had dinner, cannot read, cannot turn on the laptop, don't want to talk and I cannot sleep.
Alright the last one is exaggerated. I can sleep if I want, but I'm so tired that I don't feel like sleeping. You know? Maybe, maybe not. Then again, who cares.
you're going down for the world to see,
and i'm laughing at you :D
9:08 PM
it's got to be peppermint candy.
if there's something that i'd get addicted to
Yeah i guess i love Saturdays.
you're going down for the world to see,
and i'm laughing at you :D
2:49 PM
it's got to be peppermint candy.
if there's something that i'd get addicted to
The sky's looking pretty now :)
you're going down for the world to see,
and i'm laughing at you :D
1:03 AM
it's got to be peppermint candy.
Tuesday, December 1
if there's something that i'd get addicted to
Common test is coming in two weeks and though i haven't started studying yet, i actually feel quite good today because we kinda made things clear for our projects! :D Ok IV and CFAS excluded, but yeah, at least we are clear about TR, CM and BCOMM? :D
Networking started out bad, but the talking was alright. At least i didn't stutter or not talk? Lol! Yeah somehow i seem to have changed. I used to be confident, sure of myself and what i wanted to say, good at articulation etc. Now? I'm scared, i get nervous way too easily, i speak very quickly almost all the time, i stutter etc. I hate it. But I WILL GET OVER IT. I just need to change back.
On the whole, i feel good now. Why? No reason in particular actually. If you're thinking that it's the projects thing. Maybe yes? Then again we didn't really do much but allocate jobs. I guess i just like to have a direction to work towards :)
you're going down for the world to see,
and i'm laughing at you :D
9:51 PM
it's got to be peppermint candy.
Sunday, November 29
if there's something that i'd get addicted to
Everyone's behaving insane to some extent. Maybe that's why i am. It's really understandable why she tries to stay away from home. I really need to get out of my current state.
you're going down for the world to see,
and i'm laughing at you :D
8:37 PM
it's got to be peppermint candy.
if there's something that i'd get addicted to
Take 4:02min to listen to this. It's really nice.
Mariah Carey
Angels Cry
Memoirs Of An Imperfect Angel
Eh I shouldn't have walked away
I would have stayed, if you’d say
We could've made everything okay
But we just
Threw the blame back and forth
We treated love like a sport
The final blow hit so low
I'm still on the ground
I could have prepared myself for this blow
Shattered and pieces curled on the floor
Supernatural, love conquers all
Remember we used to touch the sky?
And lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I
Said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love’s a gift
But we let it drift
In the storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry
Come on babe
Can our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just trying to survive
As the angels cry
Limitless omnipresent kind of love
Couldn’t have guessed
It would just stop
And disappear, in a world when
Here I am
Walking on this narrow road
Wobbling but won't let go
Waiting for a glimpse of the suns glow
I know I can stand just pull me back up
Like there ain’t a hurricane it’s just us
I'm willing to live and die for our love
Baby we can get back that shine
Cause lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I
Said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love’s a gift
But we let it drift
In the storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry
Come on babe
Can our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just trying to survive
As the angels cry
Baby I'm missing you
Don't allow our love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you
Baby I'm missin you
Don't allow our love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you
Cause lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I
Said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love’s a gift
But we let it slip
In the storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry
you're going down for the world to see,
and i'm laughing at you :D
2:48 PM
it's got to be peppermint candy.
Wednesday, November 25
if there's something that i'd get addicted to
Anyway, gym plans got cancelled cos Kaina and i suddenly felt stressed because we were talking about school work and stuff and somehow we just lost the mood. So i went home alone and guess what i did? I went "shopping"! :D Haha! Yeah i just have the habit of randomly going "shopping" for random stuff. LOL! I bought Memoirs Of An Imperfect Angel and Audio-Technica Bloom series earpiece in gold :D very pretty! I took ages to decide on the earpiece to buy cos i was unwilling to spend a lot but i simply cannot buy things i do not like. So in the end i had no choice but to buy the audio-technica earpiece which costs $38. Well, the sound quality was disappointing, sad to say. The Phillips one i had last time cost less and produced better sound quality. But it's ok, it's pretty and really comfortable :D
Was out just now with Retard and Sweetheart( So who's who? Er you two can go fight it out). Karaoke session was unlike the other times. It was boring? Hmm, ok i guess it was because there was only the 3 of us, yewhong doesn't exactly sing, i wasn't in the mood or condition to sing(i guess i've lost interest and ability) and jiasui needs people to sing with her. Hmm, fs you still mean a lot to us ok? :)
Headed to Timbre at The Arts House after karaoke. The pizza is really nice and the chat was pretty good. But somehow we've become less talkative compared to last time. Haiz, we're getting old :(
And i haven't done elearning! Ok i shall do it at Dragon's crib tomorrow :D And again, SI is a waste of time. Only one way to make me wake up early. Alright. bye.
BTW, THIS IS POST 999 :D
you're going down for the world to see,
and i'm laughing at you :D
10:24 PM
it's got to be peppermint candy.
Monday, November 23
if there's something that i'd get addicted to
NOTHING!
I find it hard to believe too because I don't seem to have any recollections of the activities that took place during the day!
Alright let's see. I unwillingly tore myself off my bed to prepare for Ms Foo's call but she didn't call me! I basically stayed online from 11am-1pm without bathing or doing anything, just waiting for Ms Foo to call me. Danggit. I went to bathe immediately after 1pm cos not bathin is just gross, and I went out to buy lunch! :D that's a first. I've never done it before because I'm a lazy bum. Lunched and watched a bit of tv. From then on I seem to be in a half conscious state until 7pm. Yeah I had no idea I fell asleep and somehow I only had bits and pieces of memory where my sister left the house and I shift to the longer couch etc. Yeah that sums the firstday of my elearning! Sucks right? I should be studying or completing assignments! I will, later after dinner!
And the plan for tmr will be as follows:
Cashflow Game
Telephone Etiquette
Gym
Home
Elearning
Read? (:D)
Speaking of reading, I've got 1 more book to go before I finish off the currently published Demonica Series! There are 4 books, but the last one will only be released next year! :D
This week's gonna be fun!
you're going down for the world to see,
and i'm laughing at you :D
7:36 PM
it's got to be peppermint candy.
